out of the fog part three;
so there i was, a brand new mom, sleep deprived but so so happy. like most first time parents, all those hours spent awake and in zombie-zone got me thinking about what would be going in to the perfect little body of the child that was now our responsibility to raise and nurture. i made the goal of nursing for a year but i had no idea what i was getting into. [another story for another time. nursing isnt for everyone. and that whole thing about how its “natural”? baloney.] my main motivation behind that decision was looking at myself and wanting him to be as healthy as possible. i wanted the absolute best for him, like any parent does. so i decided: “if i can nurse, im going to nurse as long as possible.” we made it two weeks shy of his one year birthday- liam weaned himself naturally. it was a war [shout out to my husband for being our biggest cheerleader. we never would have made it without his support!] but we made it.
later we would find out how much i wore out my body by breastfeeding that long but it is a decision i will NEVER regret.
the turning point: i was five months partpartum, liam was still waking every 2-3 hours at night and i was deliriously happy. but as the months went on i started to notice that i REALLY wasn’t feeling right. it wasn’t an emotional thing, it was physical. this is where doTerra comes in: a friend of mine in california posted online about her essential oil experience and offered to explain them more one on one when i asked for more info. at this point, what did i have to lose? we felt like we had tried everything. will was on board to give it a try so we placed our first order — and we haven’t looked back! the day our kit came, will had a horrible cold that had him kept him home from work for the past two days. melody texted some suggestions and within five minutes of applying peppermint to his sinuses, they were clear! he felt instantly better and continued to use them throughout the day. that night he slept great and went to work feeling almost 100% better. a few days later we used them to treat liam’s very first ear infection. our pediatrician was impressed and we were sold! i began diving into the essential oil world more doing research, taking classes and using them on myself, will and liam. it was a ray of sunshine & hope in a confusing, new time. [email me for the rest of our essential oil story. there’s so much more to it!]
at 8 months old, liam was finally sleeping 6-7 hour stretches but i was a complete mess. my vertigo had become a daily thing, i felt faint and nauseous all the time, and i STILL felt like i had morning sickness all day long. my stomach was constantly burning, from the moment i got up in the morning until i went to bed. since i was nursing, there wasn’t much i could do about it. i used my oils religiously and they NEVER let me down– but there was an underlying condition. something was wrong and it felt like it was getting worse. to figure out what it was, i had to keep searching. i was tired of having no energy, vision problems, freezing cold hands and feet, blood pressure that was way too low, ovarian cysts, night sweats, the list goes on and on…
my doctors in canada kept telling me i was just experiencing post partum symptoms and i was getting angry. the UTIs were still happening. the vertigo was debilitating. i was having episodes of suddenly losing strength in my legs and falling. i couldn’t leave the house even to go to the grocery store without thinking at least once i might toss my cookies right there in the cereal aisle. my sister traveled up to stay with us for weeks at a time that first year to help with the baby. there was no way this was “normal.”
finally, will had the idea to go back to my urologist in ohio and try his suggested treatment. it seemed logical to think that it all started with bladder infections so why not go back to the root of the problem? where it all started? it would mean a lot of change and hard work but we were desperate. my health was not only my problem but it was will’s and liam’s. that wasn’t fair to them. i decided right then and there i would do whatever else it took to get better. my family needed and deserved a better me! (as draining as the physical symptoms were, the daily emotional barrage of guilt was worse.)
so we arranged for health insurance in the states again and while waiting for january 1st for it to take effect, i began to take control and made some changes. first, i added magnesium to my daily routine after coming across wellness mama and her amazing blog. within a few days i felt better! next i tackled blood sugar regulation and learned all i could about proper food combinations and what super foods would benefit me most. with the help of a health coach who specialized in hormonal health, we built a protocol specially fitting my needs and within three months i was on my way to healing. when the first of the year came i began specialized treatments with a chiropractor, my urologist and pelvic floor therapy. i also began biofeedback treatments and worked with a functional medicine doctor– i really began to improve after that. i wasn’t back to old care free myself, but i was definitely better. finally.
fast forward to present day and i feel like a new person. do i still have weak days? absolutely. your adrenals take a long time to heal but as long as you are taking proper care of yourself, you have no reason to think they wont. i still deal with vertigo and low blood pressure on a daily basis but i am healing myself through nutrition, holistic remedies and self care. i am forever grateful to my team of doctors and healthcare professionals who have gone above & beyond by working together and working relentlessly to find my diagnosis. (more on that later.) my faith in God and His leading was my lifeline during these years. He truly was my arrow when i had no idea where to go.
-originally written in fall 2015
adrenal fatigue is a very real struggle. there is a huge need for awareness, support and simple actionable steps to take when someone is suffering from a body in constant fight or flight mode. don’t give up! as a health coach, i am here to help those with adrenal burnout. i have been there. it’s in my rearview mirror. i was blessed with arrows in the fog and footprints in the sand and i am now on the right path, thank God. He has watched over me this whole time and He is enabling me to help you now.
there is still so much more to my story, but i will leave it like it is here. my recovery protocol was tailored to me, as yours should be you. do you have a plan? are you ready to take control of your health? lets work together!